PYHO: Yoga, Take Me Away

Last week I was lamenting over how my dietary changes seemed to be making no difference (or possible making my headaches worse).  Over the weekend I spent time away from reality and with several long time girlfriends.  We drank and I didn’t limit my diet, I ate whatever I wanted.  And for the first time in months, I went a day without having to take a nap or take a med or something else to deal with head pain.

I did have some minor head pain but it wasn’t much.

So what does this mean?

I have no idea.  Just another data point in the quagmire of conflicting evidence I have built up over the years trying to isolate the thing that is responsible.

Lately I’ve been thinking that maybe the underlying issue is simply stress.  Even when I don’t particularly feel stressed, I bet my stress level is still higher than many years ago when my headaches weren’t so bad.

Maybe I had a good day this weekend because I was able to let go a little.  Not worry so much.  Just be.

On Monday I made a commitment to myself to do yoga everyday.

EVERY. SINGLE. DAY.

I’ve done yoga off and on in the past.  I enjoy it and it does have a way of silencing my mind for a short period of time.  As I try not to fall on my face or my ass holding a pose while also making sure I breathe, I tend to forget about everything else.

Will this be IT.

Will this help?

Who knows.  But it can’t hurt, right?

PYHO: Diet and Migraines – A Month of GF/DF

It has been a little over a month since I went dairy free and gluten free. When I started I really expected a change. I had test results that I could see that indicated issues with dairy. I thought, “finally this is it”.

But so far I don’t see anything good. My headaches have actually been worse. Granted, the barometric pressure has been conspiring against me as well so who’s to say where the failure lies.

Not to mention I’ve also been trying supplements to help my headaches and stabilize nutrient deficiencies at the same time. In other words I’ve changed a flurry of variables and am left with no positive results and no clear villain to blame.

Unless of course I just blame myself which is a favorite pastime.

So where do I go from here?

I am miserable. The chronic pain is exhausting and frustrating and the dietary restrictions are annoying.

I’ve had in the back of my mind for a long while that I just might have to eliminate virtually everything to see if I can make a dent in this pain cycle.  Go full on raw vegan for at least some short period to see if helps. To see if I can begin to identify any food villains.

But I have been afraid of feeling deprived. Of having nothing to eat. Of feeling like utter crap.

I feel that way now. So how much worse could it get?

I know it could be bad. I have attempted detoxes with food before and I end up curled up in the fetal position in horrible pain and pukimg my guts out.

Guess that means I’m pretty toxic.

Maybe I need to be simpler. Focus on what to add instead of what to subtract. I used to be good about having green smoothies but I got out of the habit. Maybe if I focused on increasing my fruits and vegetables. Have green smoothies everyday and snack on fruits and veggies. Increase my water intake.

It seems that would be gentler to my system and allow for moderation instead of deprivation.

I don’t know what to do.

I’m miserable and I feel like my body is screaming at me that it needs something but I have no idea what it is.  And I have no idea how to figure it out.

I wish I had some sort of reset button.  Some way to start over without shocking my system into rebellion.

Why can’t I find something that helps?  There has to be something.  Because I’m breaking and I need something to mend me.

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