I’m sitting here with ear plugs in because we have power tools running every so often in the house and the sound is just enough to pierce my brain. I have my neck warmer on and a can of caffeine. I already zapped my brain with my Cefaly device and now I’m calculating how long I wait before I give in and take medication for the pain.
It is a typical day.
I break out the various tools in my toolbox for dealing with the pain. Try to determine if it is a day worth taking medication and risking more rebound headaches or do I push through and try to give my system a rest from the chemicals. Funny thing how you have to keep on functioning day after day regardless of the pain in your head.
I have an appointment in a few weeks at a headache center that I’ve been to before but it was back in the beginning, at least 15 years ago. The doctors are different, the options are different, maybe my results will be different.
I never give up hope completely.
The last preventative I tried did not work out. Again. The side effects made me distrust my own thinking. I could handle tiredness or a funny taste or even trouble sleeping but something that messes with my thinking and exacerbates my anxiety, I can’t handle. That’s not good for anyone.
So I’ve been trying supplements and this and that while I wait for the next doctor to use me as a guinea pig.
Hopeful and hopeless all at the same time.