When I saw the news about Robin Williams’ suicide, I immediately looked for some evidence that it was a cruel hoax. Another fake internet death. Then more and more news outlets were reporting the same thing and I cried. I was devastated that someone so full of life, that made the world laugh, had succumbed to the darkness of Depression.
I first saw the phrase “Depression lies” from The Bloggess. She is a fierce advocate of mental health causes. She is a sufferer herself and when I read her words, it is as if they are from my own mind. She is absolutely right, Depression lies.
You are worthless.
You are not worthy of love or friendship.
You never do anything right and are a failure.
You are a burden to those around you.
Everyone you love would be better off without you.
Things will never, ever get better.
And the list of lies goes on and on.
When the evil shadow of Depression is whispering in your ear, it is difficult to fight the darkness. The darkness is all-consuming. You are drowning in it.
It is hard to remember that you will rise from the abyss and find the light again. You may be scared that it won’t happen but I promise you it will. The light is there. Waiting for you. It will always be there.
I have struggled with depression for many years now and the awful, terrible thoughts have entered my mind. But I keep fighting and go on.
I always find the light.
I am so grateful that I have been able to reach out to people to help me through those awful thoughts. Through the lies of Depression.
Please, I beg you, before you act you must speak.
Speak to anyone. Call the Suicide Hotline.
I know there will be someone who will tell you that they need and want you here.
That you matter.
That you must not leave.