My emotions and my thoughts are all over the place. I have been wanting to write out what is going on in my head and my heart but it is hard to put it into words. I am heartbroken for the victims and families in Newtown. What they are going through is unimaginable but sadly, very real. I am so angry that it happened. That those beautiful babies and the adults who care for them were ripped from the earth.
I close my eyes and I see their pictures. I imagine my own children and I can’t breathe.
I read about them. I wish all the love and light I can to their families, those left behind to pick up the pieces.
I keep asking myself how do we go on as a society? How did we get here? We have to do something. Something has to change.
I want to pull the whole world into a bear hug. But then the next minute I am terrified of the world.
There have been too many of these massacres. After the shootings at VA Tech, my alma mater, a place I love, we were all shocked. My friend lost her cousin there. We as a nation mourned together. Then we moved on. Yes there were things done to better handle a situation like that and to try and prevent it. I see the evidence of that when I go to see my oldest in college.
Although colleges may have made changes, as a society, what did we do? We closed our eyes and hoped that it would not happen again.
But it is still happening.
And now those children are gone. I can’t move on unless we move forward. Make progress toward making our society safer. I know that we can never prevent every bad thing from happening. But we can do more. The status quo isn’t enough for me anymore.
I know there are many, many opinions out there on what could be done, what should be done. We are lucky in this country that we can all put our ideas on the table. We can voice those opinions and demand change. We can contact our legislators, we can organize, we can do something to further whatever course of action we think should be taken.
We should mourn. Grieve. Feel. Then we should act. It is long past time to do so.
I plan to act.