He leaves on Friday. My oldest will be off to college. He’s an official adult now and about to leave the comfort of home and go off into the world on his own.
I’ve teared up a few times. I’ve been pretty close to crying. I think I haven’t quite felt it be completely real yet.
He and my other stepsons were here last night and we went to dinner to celebrate and I made a cake. A and T made cards to say how they will miss him. He seems pretty even keeled about the whole thing. I know I was very nervous at that age but he handles it quite well.
This morning I was just looking around the hallway at the clutter. I was making mental notes about how I need to organize the mess. At some point. I noticed that there are still papers from last school year piled up that must be dealt with and I wondered when I would make the time to get to it.
And that was it. The tears started up. I held it together until I dropped off A and T at camp but then I let them flow freely.
I guess it was noting how fast time passes. Maybe. I’m not really sure why that particular moment put a crack in the dam that I have had up.
I know it was just a crack though. I can still feel the pressure of emotion building up.
The last time I’ll see him before he’s off to school is Thursday night. I wonder if I can keep it together in front of him or will I just let it go.
My mom hardly ever cried when I was a kid. She’s one of those glass half full types. But I vividly remember how she cried her eyes out as she got into the car to leave me down at college. I cried quite a bit myself. I was very, very homesick at first.
He’s knows we’ll miss him. We have told him many times. And he can see it in our faces.
I’m so very proud of him. And I know he will do well.
But I will really miss him.
Twitter: KristenPGIP
says:
I will need to be on tranquilizers when my girls go off to college…half full glass or not. I’m already crying about Ash going into 5th grade because just like you said…time will fly by and then she will be in middle school.
If you need a shoulder, let me know. I always have tissues too! Enjoy your Thursday night and let the smiles, laughter and tears flow. It’s ALL good!!
Twitter: acctodenise
says:
Thanks lady! I am curious to see my emotions play out. I envision quite the roller coaster. I just may need that shoulder.
Twitter: inspiringgaia
says:
Regardless, I’m still going to be balling my eyes out. I’m already emotional about my kids growing up and starting school for the first time. I could only imagine how you are feeling because your kid won’t be in the house anymore. They are practically adults and must make their own decisions and this is a milestone of their life.
Twitter: acctodenise
says:
I think moms always cry for this. It’s mandatory.
Twitter: themommymess
says:
First of all, you do Not look old enough to have a kid going ot college! You go girl!!
Secondly, this is hard to read b/c my son, although he’s only 14, will be leaving sooner than I’d like to think about.
{{{HUGS}}}
Twitter: acctodenise
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Even though he’s my stepson I am old enough to have birthed him
. With a total of 5 kids I have to wonder if I’ll get used to it. I imagine I won’t.
Twitter: fiercedivablog
says:
Oh, Denise! How bittersweet! Time does fly so quickly and your stepchildren are so lucky to have you as a caring presence in their lives! I have stepchildren too that I don’t talk about on TFDGTL because there is some sticky stuff there. I bet I could learn a thing or 2 from you about blended families.
Twitter: acctodenise
says:
Very bittersweet. I am lucky to have them as well.
What a huge milestone! He’ll be okay, mama. xo
Twitter: acctodenise
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He’ll be just fine. It’s the moms that freak out.
Twitter: momma23monkeys
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I cannot begin to imagine how difficult the goodbyes will be. I’ll be thinking of you.
Twitter: acctodenise
says:
I wish I had some kind of eloquent and awesome advice or other words to share as he goes off to school. But all I can really manage is to say we will miss him.
Twitter: OneLoCoMommy
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E has grown up to be a wonderful young man. I know it’s tough but he’s going to be just fine. And you should be proud for being a great stepmom.
Twitter: acctodenise
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He really did turn out to be a great adult didn’t he.
Twitter: doc_megz_to_be
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Awww! I remember how my mom (who has your name) cried when I left for university four years ago… it was really tough on us all. Thinking of you, and I hope that you are finding enough support!
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Twitter: acctodenise
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Everyone has been so awesome. Thanks!
Twitter: Newmommabeckers
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Aww!!! I can’t even imagine what I’ll feel when my infant son is old enough for college!! I’ll probably cry buckets – I’m sure I’ll cry when I have to send him to preschool, let alone college. We’re here with you!
Twitter: acctodenise
says:
Oh preschool, kindergarten, every school milestone is a reason to cry buckets.
Twitter: KimberlyAMuro
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He’ll be ok, though I’m sure it will be tough on you. I cried my eyes out last year when my oldest entered middle school! I’ll be a wreck when he leaves for college.
Twitter: acctodenise
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He’s doing great down at school. It’s weird without him here but now I feel mostly excited for him.