Motivation is really the desire to do something. I have that desire. What I lack is follow through. I tend to procrastinate and make excuses. There is always something else to do or I am in pain or I just want to relax. In my brain I know that I want to be healthy. I want to do what will make me healthy. It’s that follow through part that gets me.
I have been a lot more active for the last few months. I have been working out in a group (sporadically) and I’ve been doing the Couch to 5K plan to get ready for a race. I am very, very proud of those actions. But, of course, I don’t see any tangible proof of my effort (read: I’m not melting pounds).
Since the most obvious outward reward for the effort is slow in coming, I need to focus on other things. And frankly, other, more important things. Exercise makes me healthier. And it keeps me sane. Or it moves me toward being more sane (if you know me and think I’m just this side of sane).
I notice an improvement in my general well-being. I feel more capable. I can do more without getting exhausted. These are all signs that my health is improving. I am moving in the right direction. So I need to keep moving.
I can feel the stress and weight of the world lighten after I have exercised. My brain is happier. I need to release that tension and stress. So I need to keep moving.
Focus on my health and my sanity. For me. Keep moving.