It has been a little over a month since I went dairy free and gluten free. When I started I really expected a change. I had test results that I could see that indicated issues with dairy. I thought, “finally this is it”.
But so far I don’t see anything good. My headaches have actually been worse. Granted, the barometric pressure has been conspiring against me as well so who’s to say where the failure lies.
Not to mention I’ve also been trying supplements to help my headaches and stabilize nutrient deficiencies at the same time. In other words I’ve changed a flurry of variables and am left with no positive results and no clear villain to blame.
Unless of course I just blame myself which is a favorite pastime.
So where do I go from here?
I am miserable. The chronic pain is exhausting and frustrating and the dietary restrictions are annoying.
I’ve had in the back of my mind for a long while that I just might have to eliminate virtually everything to see if I can make a dent in this pain cycle. Go full on raw vegan for at least some short period to see if helps. To see if I can begin to identify any food villains.
But I have been afraid of feeling deprived. Of having nothing to eat. Of feeling like utter crap.
I feel that way now. So how much worse could it get?
I know it could be bad. I have attempted detoxes with food before and I end up curled up in the fetal position in horrible pain and pukimg my guts out.
Guess that means I’m pretty toxic.
Maybe I need to be simpler. Focus on what to add instead of what to subtract. I used to be good about having green smoothies but I got out of the habit. Maybe if I focused on increasing my fruits and vegetables. Have green smoothies everyday and snack on fruits and veggies. Increase my water intake.
It seems that would be gentler to my system and allow for moderation instead of deprivation.
I don’t know what to do.
I’m miserable and I feel like my body is screaming at me that it needs something but I have no idea what it is. And I have no idea how to figure it out.
I wish I had some sort of reset button. Some way to start over without shocking my system into rebellion.
Why can’t I find something that helps? There has to be something. Because I’m breaking and I need something to mend me.